“Psychology of Women Assignment”
…For one day, I wore a short skirt and a pair of opaque tights and sat with my legs spread apart. In class, my feet were on the floor,
[I was wearing heels, and one of my male friends was sitting across from me.]
and elsewhere (Saga, Jazzman’s, Rose Creek Coffee Co-op)
[I reached out my leg and pressed my heel into his crotch. I felt it sink into his softness. His mouth twitched.]
I put my feet on other furniture on occasion. Especially while in class, I was physically quite uncomfortable. It hurt my back and hips to sit so spread out. …
[Sex has always been painful for me. I feel like I am opening up for the world.
Since only the campus community was witnessing me violate this norm, and in general is quite used to gender norm violation, I was not nervous in the way I would have been if I had gone
into Strichmont to collect my data.
[I have been subjected to the hands of several aggressive men.]
For the most part, people didn’t say much of anything to me. … I didn’t receive any treatment different from that given to the men around me who were sitting the same way.
[When he said “Hey,” I dug my heel deeper in, harder until it broke off and he cried.]
It seemed as if people weren’t thinking, “That’s not very ladylike!” but were actually thinking, “That’s not very polite!” When I was
in Jazzman’s, no one said anything to me—no one even looked at me.
[Once, my legs were spread open and I felt compelled to hook my fingers under the left leg of my tights and slide it down my leg, all the way to my ankle.]
… Most people looked longer and more frequently at my lap when talking to me. That reaction was the one that made me most uncomfortable, since I am not at all used to people not looking at my face while we talk. One of my friends exclaimed, “Sammy! Close your legs!”
[I replied by opening them further and then slamming them closed so my thighs were like a gnashing monster.]
and another asked me in all seriousness, “Do you have a groin injury?”
I will be recording a video this weekend of myself reading a sexy section of Five Days to post on the Oysters and Chocolate website nearer the publication date (December 1). Hopefully Amanda will do one as well. Stay tuned. It will be terrific.
Issue Seven of the Safety Pin Review is now live, alongside some action shots. Please note that author Doug Paul Case in no way advocates sexual violence.